Saturday, August 29, 2015

The Curves Life Throws You!

So, for the last month or more I have been dealing with my dad being in and out of the hospital and the feeling that these doctor's are not really motivated to help him due to his age. He's 85. I have pretty much been burning the candles at both ends as they say, because my mother who is 86 needs me to help her deal with this situation as well. She is exhausted, not sleeping well, and the community around her is coming together to support and help her as well. But it isn't the same as the expectation she has from her daughter. There have been major issues with the hospital in terms of Medicare and treatment and many disagreements on how things should be handled.

In the meantime, I have changed my work schedule, due to my needing to pick my daughter up after school. Middle School kids, they don't like to go to after care. So, it's a 4:30-4:45 wake up call and at work by 6:30. I get off by 3:00 but by 12:30, I am going down hill and ready to crash. Only, crashing isn't an option because we have soccer practice twice a week for an hour and a half, chorus after school two times a week, Hebrew school twice a week, after school tutoring and well just life in general.

My daughter is now on the Concord Fire Central Academy Soccer Silver team. This is a true commitment!  Her biggest so far and a great life lesson on what is expected of her in terms of commitment. Besides our 1 1/2 hour practices twice a week, and then starting in a couple of weeks, games every weekend and the occasional tournament. Yes, busy she is, but she is also really loving it, and gaining a great confidence in the sport that is to say the least, amazing. Think this could definitely add extra boost to the self esteem. She has still managed at this point to have sleepovers with her school friends (especially, her long time BFF ie. picking Just Dance songs for each other to complete) and do other activities she loves. I'm afraid though that once the season really starts, she will have to make some tough decisions. But I am confident that she will make the best one. I am in awe of the maturity Middle School had brought for not only her but her friends. They are a different breed of child now, but in an amazing way. They are really a loving, sensitive, caring group of kids. They have welcomed with open arms all the new kids at there school and made them really feel part of the AIS (Atlanta International School) community. It's amazing!

So, in all of this how am I maintaining? Fairly well, I have good friends who support me and who I communicate with on a daily basis, that have been a great support to me.  I am learning through this process what I can handle and what I need to just let go of. I have learned who my true friends are and who are the ones who expect me to be there for them, but they are not there for me.

I am discovering that I am going to make major changes in my life. Where I live, my social life (I have been having a blast with that lately..met some great new people), and that no matter what happens to you in life, kindness to others and being there for people no matter how they present themselves to you, is the most important thing.

As for now, and always, the only thing I can do; is go with the flow.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015


I stare helplessly out the window
how I ended up on this
indescribable, unfulfilling path
that I am on.

In the distance,
I see a the forest begin to grow
rapidly, and thicker
as the minutes pass.

I am being blinded by its
fierce, yet somewhat lovely change
and curiosity is overtaking
my mind.

I fear that I am being
blocked, covered by
the trees expansion
and that it is nearing me.

I want to run towards it
to see what its meaning is.
But at the same time,
I am fully aware of what it

I am blocked, paralyzed
by not having a direction,
by not following my heart.

The forest is there to remind me
how quickly we can be smothered
by what we feel we must do, instead
of what we truly
want to.

The reality of trying to navigate
through the thick brush of trees, etc.,
creates a harder
and longer path to follow
before coming out
on the other side of the forest,
and seeing the truth.

So as I look out to the distance,
I put my hand over my eyes,
close them, rub them once and
open them again.

This time, I see a forest,
but one where the sun is shining through the trees.
A small but inviting narrow path calling out to me.
As I walk out the door and toward the forest,
I am no longer lost, but awaiting an adventure.

@Lisa Kilinc 2015

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

FoodMatters TV

FoodMatters TV is amazing! About two weeks ago, I received an email in my inbox about FREE documentaries that they are showing through the first two weeks of November. I signed up but did not watch the first week. Last night I went to the website and instead of watching the free movies, I decided to sign up for the site on a monthly basis. There are a good number of documentaries to choose from, exercise videos, recipies to make; umong other things.

James Colquhoun and Laurentine ten Bosch are an amazing  couple who have helped to revolutionized the new health industry and make people aware of the benefits of changing to and maintina a healthy life. When James decided it was time to help his father get healthier because the traditional medicine route was not working, the couple invested their life savings into making the documentary FoodMatters. A documentary that was not only ana amazing success, but spawned an empire of amazing other documentaries, cookbooks etc.

In this day and age, we as a society in the U.S. especially eat whatever. Our food is laden with chemicals, and other additives. We are becoming sicker and sicker as a nation. We are doing a great diservice to our children by not only feeding them healthier foods, but not teaching them what it means to live a healthy life. The, website is definitely worth checking out. Not only can you learn something new, but maybe you can help change your life or someone else's.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

I Know, I Know...Excuses No More

So, I always promise myself that I am going to write more, especially in this space. Here where I love to document what is going on in life or my thoughts in general. Does it ever happen?...not like I would like it too.  Or as often as I would like.

Honestly, I can find every excuse in the book as to why I don't have time, or why I can't make the time. I am a great procrastinor and will put things off easily. I have never been disciplined in life as it takes to accomplish what it is that I am passionate about doing. The craziest and  funniest thing though, is that when I actually sit down and write, I realize what I have been missing out on and how much I love to put words on paper.

Excuses come easily to most of us. We are always too tired, or have too much going on. Our kids activities, or the time spent in the car getting from point A to Point B, drain us of our energy. We crash and burn and then we stop focusing on what our passions are and end up just cycling through life on a day-to-day basis without much joy or determination to live the life we truly want to live or that we were meant to. Excuses are a way for us to procrastinate. Sometimes excuses are the way in which we can live up to our fears and accomplish nothing.

I am always in awe of the people in the world, who are complete go-getters, who can do something with such ease and accomplish so much. Even when I am in that mode, it seems som much harder for me, or that it doesn't come so easily as it does for others. So, I try to follow those who are successful to create the success that I myself would love to have. I try to let go of the excuses. I am beginning to fill my reading list and audio list with motivational and learning materials.

This morning when I was waking up and getting ready to go to work, for another day, doing something that is not my true passion. I realized that the excuses have to stop. That I need to find a way or a metod to get them out of my life. That I need to put aside any fears that I may have and plan out how I will brake down each task, to accomplsh my goals!

By breaking down my goals into a specific daily schedule, I know that not only will I get things I want accomplished, but I will finally move myself forward and begin to see the results I desire. It won't happen over night, but I will be closer to living the life of my dreams.

So, I will spend the weekend, discovering what it is I truly need to do to see significant change and map out a way to get there.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Goodbye Summer, Back to Reality!

Well, the summer went by fast and I can't believe that school has started. It seem just like yesterday I was putting my daughter on the bus for sleep away camp.

My daughter started 5th grade yesterday, the last year of elementary school! A part of me is super happy, but at the same time, my little girl is growing up fast!

So now, with the summer finished,  it is time for me to find a moment or two to focus on myself again. In the last month, I have made it a mission to finally get in the best shape ever, so I joined Cross Fit North Atlanta. Last Monday I went there to try a trial class. It was super fun, definitely challenging and a very new way of exercising, but I loved it. I can see it becoming "my thing". Today, second day later, I am so sore I can barely move. So, Monday next week will be my first full week of Cross Fit. I am going to show up and get moving at 6:00 a.m. Monday morning! That is my concentration for myself in the exercise department.

There are many other things I am working on as well. It is my goal to be working form home by the time my daughter is ready to start school again in the fall of 2015. I have spent and am getting ready to really go full force into making this dream a true reality. I have wasted to much time and let fear and doubt dictate for too long. I am not different than anyone else in the world who is making a full-time income working from home. So, why not me too. I have decided to concentrate truly on my passions, one major talent I believe I have, (of which I will not divulge too much information about now), but that I can combine with other passions I am working on, that can help propel and help me be successful in accomplishing my goals. I will be out and about scouring for items to sell, creating newsletter, opening new shops, and building a portfolio of real estate properties.

I intend to also get back into reading hardcore for the rest of the year, not only as pleasure, but also as a means of learning and growing. There will also be lots of dabbling in my number one passion...writing. Not sure why, I always veer away from it and do not stay as consistent as I should with my writing, but none the less, I need to take charge and make changes in that realm of my life. Honestly, sometimes, I feel as if I have wasted a lot of time and talent in that arena of my life for years. Question to self: Is the time you have spent hating what you do (work) worth, the blank pages you have not filled?
Answer to self: Hell no!

I think as always, it is a matter of reflection and then doing. I need to carve out the time to pursue these things, no matter what life throws at me. Life can get in the way, but it seems to me that, that becomes an excuse for fear to stop someone form moving forward.

So, look for me to be in this space for a while, as I navigate and try to form a different life for myself. A true life. One full of where and what I want to be. Dictated only by me and not someone else.

Sadly, the summer is almost truly behind us, But, that does not mean we can't live everyday with the freedom that summer seems to bring vs. the rest of the seasons.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Nerdy Auction Girl's Etsy Shop Now Open

So, I am a long time eBay seller. Recently though, I have decided to start branching out and selling my great vintage finds while thrifting and through estate sales on Etsy and eBay! I will begin to slowly transfer all my vintage finds and exclusively sell them one Etsy!

I love to thrift and scout and scour to find deals to resell. I am going to start to post my stuff on my new blog Nerdy Auction Girl that I am in the process of working on. It is here that I will document my picking, and discoveries of great finds and all my adventures that unfold.

I am super excited to embark on this venture. When the Nerdy Girl Auction site is up and operational, I will be posting a link from this site.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

I Have A New Crush~Jason Silva

Picture via Concrete

So today, I found a new crush! 

There is nothing more appealing than a brilliant, funny. kind hearted and intellectual man. Jason is a game changer, go-getter, idea changer and world changer. There is none other than Mr.Jason Silva. His studies of philosophy and film in college helped him to create a really cool Youtube channel, Shots of Awe. If you love film and philosophy you must subscribe. He does philosophical shorts that are super thought provoking. 

He also recently did an interview with Marie Forleo, the amazing creator of B-School and Marie T.V.. Can I say not only was it a brilliant interview, but he is an all around guy with a great sense of the world. This has to be one of the best interviews yet on Marie T.V. 

I am in awe of what this man is as a whole package, and he is the whole package. His love of learning, growing and wanting to achieve his dreams and live his passion is undeniably sexy. 

I came across another interview with him at I Am That Girl  and he solidified what a man he truly is through connection with his family.

He seems really down to earth and motivated to help others realize how important it is to be you and live the life that you passion for. 

So check out his Youtube Channel, Sots of Awe. This is eye candy at its best!